By: Amanda

Amanda — Fri, 20 Nov 2015 18:36:36 +0000

Thank you for this post!!! I too am ANGRY with God but haven’t been able to put my finger in my emotion until I read your post. I haven’t had as much happen to me as you have… In fact moat would say I’ve still got it pretty good. Marriage to a wonderful, supportive (and also angry with God) man. Three beautiful smart boys. I haven’t lost any family members. And yet I’m angry. Angry that my parents got divorced because my dad had an affair right as my youngest was being born. Angry that he can’t remember which if my kids birthdays are when (even in this modern era of calendars on cell phones). Angry that it tore my family apart and I’m the only one who still sees him and my mother and siblings see me as a traitor for trying to forgive and “do the right thing”. I’m angry with God that we were created to make mistakes. And those mistakes rip our families apart. I’m angry because my dad was an elder on the church for over 20 years and now he’s living with his new girlfriend and never attends services.
I too have an autoimmune disease… Two actually. One diagnosed at age 7 and the other at 15. And I’m dealing daily with the 2nd one.
I was like you – so in love with God when I was younger. I too read and studies and sang and prayed. I helped my mother hold it together after the divorce and encouraged her to not give up on God and here I am now wanting to do the exact same thing. WHY does this happen? I have loved and prayed for so long and now I’m just mad. Pissed and pissy.
Please let me know how and when your anger fades and how and what you did to help it because it’s not a fun place to be. Morning the loss of what was and uncertain of the future and just so angry in the present…

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By: Amanda