A Love Letter To Myself

This was the start. This is what I remind myself of.

Written November 17, 2014

My sweet girl,

I love you.
I want you to be happy and healthy in every way possible. I want you to achieve every dream your heart desires and have a soul full of wisdom and peace.

Be gentle with yourself.
You have made mistakes and that is okay. You will continue to make more. That is the way of life. It is how you treat yourself after those mistakes that matters. Stop beating yourself up little one. You are forgiven.

Trust yourself.
You know what you need to do, you are too scared to do it. You are afraid of the unknown, but the reality is nothing is ever known. Sit with that for a while. Remember to breathe. Take care of your spirit. Surround yourself with the best people.

Cry if you need to.
Grieve if you need to. Let those emotions move through you. Forgive yourself and others. Cut the ties that bind you to the soul suckers and revel in how light you feel – you may even fly and touch the stars.

I want to hug you and hold you and let you know how very loved you are. You inspire me and surprise me in so many ways. I am so proud of you for being the mother that you are. I know how hard you work at it and so do they boys…they too love and cherish you very much.

You are such a beautiful person.
You make others feel so at ease when they are around you. You are sooo smart too. I have never met anyone with such a thirst for learning and exploring. I love watching you turn the pages of a book or learning something new. My favorite thing to do is to watch you explore the world around you. Everything is so new and shiny in your eyes – it’s like getting to watch a small child discover the magic in a lady bug.

You can be so soft and gentle and compassionate.
You are generous to a fault and give your heart and possessions freely to others. It amazes me how willing you are to throw your heart out there over and over again – so fearlessly – not hiding it out of fear of being trampled on. That takes great courage and strength, sweet girl, and it inspires others to be willing to do the same.

I want you to know how much hope you give me.
Watching you live your life always believing that the best is yet to come not matter how dark it seems touches my heart and inspires my soul.

Leah, I love you. I love you to the moon and back. I love you from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet. You are precious to me. More than I could ever find the words to describe.

Go, sweet girl. Live and laugh and love and be free.
See the places that fill your heart with wonder. Experience the beauty that God has created for us to enjoy. There is nothing holding you back but yourself. Wake each morning and tell yourself, “This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Find the beauty in everything you do. Free your mind from the weights that you have tied to your ankles.

Yes, my dear, I know it will be hard.
I know you don’t wanna do it. But you must.
It is my wish for you.
It is my deepest hearts desire to see you thriving in the bliss of joy and happiness. Give this gift to yourself, as no one else can and remember….

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Always.

Move Along, Citizen. That is all.