If I want connection, I need to connect If I want freedom, I need to liberate myself If I want to be understood, I need to be understanding If I want to be creative, then I need to create If I want to be at ease, I need to make things easy If I want to be complete, I need to finish If I want to be valued, I need to value If I want to be whole, I need to mend … [Read more...]
This Stop: Funky Town
Written February 19, 2015 Right now I'm in a funk. I'm not talking metaphorically either. I actually smell. It's been almost a week since I've taken a shower and all the things that go with that simple task (like changing clothes, brushing my hair, putting on make-up, changing my drawers). Funk-eee Town. ((gasp)) For the love of God. Seriously? GROSS. I keep asking … [Read more...]
Formulated Requirement For Forgiveness: An Investigation Into Self-Created Suffering
I am a person who easily forgives. The reality? I am a person who easily forgives once you've apologized and repented in what I consider to be an equal amount to the hurt you caused me. THEN, I can forgive you. I don't accept half ass apologies. I disdain insincerity. I see the ability to hurt others and not acknowledge those hurts to be the grossest sign of inhuman … [Read more...]
Hurt, Grief, And All That Fun Stuff
Written January 22, 2015 This whole being angry thing is really starting to piss me off. Enough already. I think I'm done with it. I think it is time to let that anger go and deal with what is underneath. You know, hurt and grief and all that fun stuff. It hurts to hurt. It saddens me to be sad. Just allow it. Let it flow through you. Yeah, I'm trying. Sometimes it … [Read more...]
Mad Tears
Written January 21, 2015 Your blood boils. Your fists clench. You raise your voice. You say some not so nice things. You look at the other person and dare them to contradict you. They do. You storm out of the room. Doors slam. And then you find yourself crying. Mad tears, I call them. They stream down your face and make your nose run and you turn into a dramatic mess. Well, … [Read more...]
Fan Girl Freak Show: Day 4
Tomorrow I leave for Lake Placid, Texas...but in FIVE DAYS I to head to the mountains to see Shane Koyczan at the RMFF (Rocky Mountain Folks Festival). I hope (fingers crossed) that I will be able to continue my Fan Girl Freak Show Countdown while I"m gone...oh who am I kidding? This will be my last blog post for a few days, but I'll keep the Shane-goodness alive on my … [Read more...]
Fan Girl Freak Show: Day 3
Six days till I depart and make the 1,076 mile trek (one way) to see Shane Koyczan at the RMFF (Rocky Mountain Folks Festival). Last night I was compelled to buy two of his books (something I've been meaning to do for a while) and embrace the fact that I am going to be "that girl" and wear a Shane Shirt to the performance. I'm totally freaking out too. Not because I'm … [Read more...]
Fan Girl Count Down: Day 2
Only 8 days people! 8 little days till I leave for The Rocky Mountain Folk Festival to go seriously fan-girl over Shane Koyczan. Today I want to share with you....To This Day ^^^you already watch too much TV...why not watch something that will change you..^^^ For updates of my trip, photos, videos, random thoughts (and to probably see me get banned from Colorado for … [Read more...]
Anger, Anger All Around A Not A Smile Or Wink
Written January 19, 2015 The more I venture into the waters of my consciousness the more I’m aware of how polluted they are. Contaminated by the limiting beliefs of others that I allow to exist there. I could scoop em out. I could deny their existence (cuz I’m the only one experiencing their reality, anyway) but instead, I just sit and watch them float around and pollute … [Read more...]
They Are Probably Going To Ban Me From The State
Ohmigosh, Ohmigosh, Ohmigosh! I could seriously give one of those creepy-monkey-circus-cymbal-toys a run for it's money on the "clapping hands like a lunatic" scale of EXCITED! In 9 days I leave for The Rocky Mountain Folk Festival to go seriously fan-girl over Shane Koyczan. I am totally obsessed. I mean this is bigger than postcards of Patrick Stewart on the mirror in … [Read more...]