Tomorrow I leave for Lake Placid, Texas...but in FIVE DAYS I to head to the mountains to see Shane Koyczan at the RMFF (Rocky Mountain Folks Festival). I hope (fingers crossed) that I will be able to continue my Fan Girl Freak Show Countdown while I"m gone...oh who am I kidding? This will be my last blog post for a few days, but I'll keep the Shane-goodness alive on my … [Read more...]
Fan Girl Freak Show: Day 3
Six days till I depart and make the 1,076 mile trek (one way) to see Shane Koyczan at the RMFF (Rocky Mountain Folks Festival). Last night I was compelled to buy two of his books (something I've been meaning to do for a while) and embrace the fact that I am going to be "that girl" and wear a Shane Shirt to the performance. I'm totally freaking out too. Not because I'm … [Read more...]
Fan Girl Count Down: Day 2
Only 8 days people! 8 little days till I leave for The Rocky Mountain Folk Festival to go seriously fan-girl over Shane Koyczan. Today I want to share with you....To This Day ^^^you already watch too much TV...why not watch something that will change you..^^^ For updates of my trip, photos, videos, random thoughts (and to probably see me get banned from Colorado for … [Read more...]
Anger, Anger All Around A Not A Smile Or Wink
Written January 19, 2015 The more I venture into the waters of my consciousness the more I’m aware of how polluted they are. Contaminated by the limiting beliefs of others that I allow to exist there. I could scoop em out. I could deny their existence (cuz I’m the only one experiencing their reality, anyway) but instead, I just sit and watch them float around and pollute … [Read more...]
They Are Probably Going To Ban Me From The State
Ohmigosh, Ohmigosh, Ohmigosh! I could seriously give one of those creepy-monkey-circus-cymbal-toys a run for it's money on the "clapping hands like a lunatic" scale of EXCITED! In 9 days I leave for The Rocky Mountain Folk Festival to go seriously fan-girl over Shane Koyczan. I am totally obsessed. I mean this is bigger than postcards of Patrick Stewart on the mirror in … [Read more...]
I Don’t Really Like My Mom
Written September 10, 2014 Oh Lord, this woman! First she’s pissed at God and now she doesn’t like her mom? Her MOTHER? The woman who gave birth to her? Tsk. Tsk. What a shame. Yes. I don’t really like my mom. I’m pissed at her too. Go. Figure. Now I know, there are two sides to every coin and every story, but my mom is dead so the only side you’re gonna hear is … [Read more...]
Pissed.
Written September 9, 2014 I am 42 years old. I am angry at God. There I said it. I AM ANGRY AT GOD. Angry. ANGRY. ANGRY. Not just a little bit angry either. I’m furious. And I’m ashamed of my fury. Who am I to be angry with God? “I’m me!” that’s who. I’m his child, a child of God and I’m mad at him for not being a good parent... for not taking care of me. For turning … [Read more...]
You Are Meant To Shine
You are meant to shine. In the darkest hours of your deepest pain those four words seem like a cruel lie and an intangible possibility that your broken heart cannot feel and your weary hands cannot grasp. You are not alone in feeling this way. We have all suffered. We have all known pain. We have all had the very best parts of ourselves chewed up and spat out by the sharp … [Read more...]
To This Day
For everyone; because we've all been damaged. Or pushed around. Or just fucking ignored. My crush on Shane continues. I think it might be love. #KillingMeSoftly Check out To This Day Project Go on. Do it. … [Read more...]
A Love Letter To Myself
This was the start. This is what I remind myself of. Written November 17, 2014 My sweet girl, I love you. I want you to be happy and healthy in every way possible. I want you to achieve every dream your heart desires and have a soul full of wisdom and peace. Be gentle with yourself. You have made mistakes and that is okay. You will continue to make more. That is the way … [Read more...]